My Own Miraculous Healing through Affirmations
In 1986 I was awakened with the most excruciating pain to my face and bolted out of bed, clutching the right side of my head. The pain felt like electricity shooting from my lower jaw to the top of my temple. All I could do was cry with deep moans as my (ex)-husband frantically tried to figure out what was the matter. From the proximity of the pain, we thought perhaps it was either a dental problem or an inner ear infection.
By 9 am when my dentist and physician opened for business, I was already exhausted from continual pain attacks that happened every few minutes like clockwork.
By the end of the week my dentist concluded the pain was not coming from my teeth or TMJ. My physician found nothing wrong with my ears, nose or throat and referred me to a neurologist who, after running a battery of tests, diagnosed me with Trigeminal Neuralgia, a disorder of the trigeminal nerve. This nerve carries pain, feeling, and other sensations from the brain to the skin of the face. It can affect part or all of the face, and the surface of the eye. The painful spasms can last from a few seconds to several minutes and can be triggered by any slight movement or even no movement at all.
I can’t begin to explain the depth of helplessness and despair that I felt in those weeks since the first attack. I couldn’t eat, sleep or have any sense of normalcy in my life and was a prisoner to pain that would not stop. I couldn’t even cry for fear the movement of my face would trigger another attack.
Because of the intensity and frequency of pain, the neurologist recommended surgery to cut the trigeminal nerve. Although this was a drastic measure, it could eliminate the pain I was experiencing but permanent repercussions and side effects weighed very heavily on me. Intuitively I felt there had to be another way.
While the doctor gave me time to consider surgery, he prescribed anti-seizure medication, muscle relaxants and sleeping pills in an effort to help manage the pain, but to no avail.
I rarely took medication for any reason so one pill was enough to knock me out for 12 hours! I knew this was no way to live a life but a gnawing feeling in my spirit kept telling me that surgery was not the answer! But what was???
After more than a month of excruciating pain, sleep deprivation, heavy sedation and the inability to care for my family, I had an emotional melt-down! Despite the pain that crying could about, it felt as though a dam had broken inside of me and tears poured out for what seemed like hours!
When I could cry no more, that’s when I heard it; the still, small voice within my spirit.
“How much longer are you going to put up with this pain?”
As though someone had thrown ice water on me, I had a sudden epiphany! I knew exactly what needed to be done.
For years I had been teaching my family, friends and anyone who would listen that “words” were seed and although I believed this with all my heart, there’s more to manifesting the miraculous than simply speaking positive words. I was at a crossroad and quite frankly, I was desperate! (And that’s exactly where I needed to be).
Something very powerful stirred within me as I said to my husband, “I’m going up those stairs to the bedroom and I am NOT coming down until I am healed!”
In the hours that followed, I lay on the bedroom floor praying and speaking affirmations over and over and over until this incredible peace fell on me like a warm blanket. I KNEW something powerful had taken place.
When I came down the stairs, a hush fell over my family as they waited with uncertainty for me to speak. My husband finally broke the silence and asked, “Well? Are you still in pain?”
I was feeling the same amount of pain in that moment as when I walked up the stairs hours earlier. But something inside of me had shifted and I knew it! I said to my family, “I believe that my body IS HEALED and I will not allow a symptom of pain to convince me otherwise. From this moment on, every time I feel pain in my face, I will say aloud, “I AM SO THANKFUL THAT MY BODY IS HEALTHY, VIBRANT AND IN TOTAL PEACE.”
For days I sounded like an obnoxious parrot repeating the same phrase over and over. But it was important that I cemented into my spirit, what I knew had been confirmed days earlier on my bedroom floor. The healing I sought had always been there.
Several days later, in the early morning hours before dawn, I woke to go to the bathroom. As I started to rise from the bed, the realization that I was pain-free hit me and I vividly remember holding my breath as I shifted my jaw from side to side; something that would almost certainly bring on a painful attack. But nothing happened. Next I started moving my jaw as though I were chewing gum and still there was no pain.
In an instant I felt a surge of energy rush through my body as I flung open the bedroom door, startling my husband from sound sleep, and ran to the kitchen where I grabbed a box of crunchy cereal, stuffing it into my mouth as fast as possible. While I chewed fast and furiously, tears of joy ran down my face as I realized the manifestation I so desperately sought was now a reality. When I turned around, my husband was standing in the middle of the kitchen, smiling from ear to ear and said, “I can’t wait to see the look on your doctor’s face when you tell him you’re healed!”
From that day on, I’ve never had another pain or episode with Trigeminal Neuralgia and I continue to walk in an attitude of gratitude for a healthy, vibrant body.
Why do I share this personal testimony? Because someone needs to hear it.
Whatever you choose to believe is entirely up to you. It is not my intention to convince or persuade any person to believe anything they aren’t comfortable with.
This is my story.
In love and light,
gloria